Oh god, I wish I could take it back. I didn't mean for it to become like this. Dear lord... I wanted some of the memories out of my life, but I didn't want her to disappear completely! I... I was an asshole, I was the hypocrite. I keep complaining about proud people who never admit that they're wrong, and I let my own ego and pride get in my way.
I may have been the nice guy in the relationship, but at the end of it, it was me who was the asshole. Not her. Never her. I was the bastard. Oh god, why did I do it? Yet, I know. I let my anger, my depression get the better of me, and I made myself to be a total asshole.
I don't want her to take me back. All I want is her forgiveness, which she probably won't give. I deserve it. I returned most of the notes that she gave me. I returned the hearts which she spent so much time folding. I returned them all back to her.
I'm a total jackass. And she's not giving me the chance to let me apologise. She has every right to do that. She's blocked me off msn, I probably deserve that too. All I can do is probably wait for PJ to help me ask. God... Why did I do it.
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