It's official. I'm a noob >.>

Basic rookie mistake of business, not counting the number of damn 0's. Scammed for 50 million gold in Diablo 3. *sigh* Yeah, my own fault.

And the second time, another guy trades me a collateral of the same worth. Yup, that sounds good. Then this guy says "Return the collateral, I need the gem to check my DPS" so I reply, give me 15mil, if you don't want it I'll return it. Well, need to protect myself right. Then he says 10mil. Well... as expected, I lose 5 million. 

Why am I just so STUPID and naive. Yeah, not everyone honours their word if they can get away with it. Welcome to the real world! As if I didn't know that already... Yet, why do I continue to do such stupid things?

 Honour is such a burden at times. Yeah, everyone will say "Dammit Nic, are you an idiot? There exists no such thing as honour where business is concerned. It's just a damn game!" Well... Yeah, but I won't change who I am. It's easy to do the right thing when the law writes it clearly that if you do "Insert bad thing here" you get punished. But I believe that it's the small things that show your character. Yeah, I'm an epic fail...

I don't believe in the Christian God, but I do believe in A God, whatever he is, I don't know :P Regardless, I believe the small things define one's character. Maybe God doesn't care about games, but I still believe that the small things matter.

But yeah... I'm going to need a darn good lawyer when I enter business. I guess in business, stuff like this won't happen as often because all of it will be on paper, but I better start to be careful too.

My honour is a burden, but I carry it gladly. I will live my life based on my honour, for it is the only thing that I will be able to take with me when I pass on. I may not necessarily live by God's rules, but I will live by the Law and what I feel is right. At the end, I guess that's what I want. To be able to look into the eyes of the judge of my afterlife and say "I lived by my principles, and I died by them. I may not have always done the right thing, but I did was I felt was necessary, and I have no regrets about my choices."

 After all, hindsight blurs our judgment of the present. I may not have the 65 million gold that I wanted. But hey, I've got 16million and my honour. The guys who scammed me probably are just laughing at the idiot, but eventually... I believe this anyway... that all things done in life, big or small, will be judged in the end. But for now, yeah, down to 14million gold after a bit of shopping. Still a good amount to have :D Being an optimistic idiot is a good thing, heh.